"Fear breads a deadening caution, a holding back, a stagnant waiting until people no longer can recall what they are waiting for or saving themselves for. When we fear failure more than we love life; when we are dominated by thoughts of what we might have been rather than by thoughts of what we might become; when we are haunted by the disparity between our ideal self and our real self; when we are tormented by guilt, shame, remorse, and self-condemnation, we deny our faith in the God of love." Brennan Manning

Friday, March 28, 2008

1 Month

Yep, here it is.  Minus one month before I depart from this phenom that some call a country.  It's more of a conglomerate of peoples that live close to each other and do their best to disturb peace. Anyway, enough of that.  I've seen war movies about how hardened vets get close to the end of a tour and get all pent up with caution.  Well, that's so real with the caveat that you actually have to operate off the "day spas" in a less than hospitable environment.  The desert holds many secrets and a few of them I'd like to see stay put.  I find myself much less willing to go and do risky missions and more than that I don't want to leave the asphalt when moving from place to place. My father always taught me to "FLAP" (Finish Like A Pro) and I'd say of done my fair share of that this year but I find myself wanting to "FLOP" (F the Last OPerations).   

4 comments:

Amanda said...

Glad to see you havent changed a bit....we are counting down the days as well! we love you

ENLIGHTEN LIFEgroup said...

That is my BOY! I paid my taxes already so your final check should be in the mail!! Thus, FLOP away!!!!

Lalla said...

Finish Like Old People.....flop, flop, Flop, FLOP....flop, flop, flip..all the way home! Ah,da, be......

David M said...

The Thunder Run has linked to this post in the blog post From the Front: 04/01/2008 News and Personal dispatches from the front lines.